Well, today was errr yeah.

Well, today I was fuckin' cold. Freakishly cold. I got to school and things were all bleh. It was pretty great how Ren and Mick were wearing essentially the same outfit. At school it was like couples were magnetically repulsive. I was standing with Mick and a few others while JT and Tina were in another group... eventually we were both alone. I felt like couples are just left alone to do their thing and no one else wants to feel like a third wheel, so they disperse. Dang. It was lame-o. I don't think Tara liked that. It was like a thing that makes you say, "Oh, right. Things are different when you're a couple. Crap on this." Man, I'm very pessimistic. More than I knew. I always have things going on in my head. Lots of debating with my depressed side. I fight it. I have a lot of shit that makes me want to say "Fuck it all!" Pretty lame, I know. But thats what makes me always assume the worst. I always think that Tara has found a reason not to like me. There are plenty-o-reasons, but I can hope to change.It was pretty funny in first period because Shaw and Casillas were messin' around and capping on eachother. Andreas was laughing at Wilfred and things were right again. It was cool. In Slom's we just fucked around and it was kickback. In, Keja Love's I graded Semester Projects. It was quick work. Oh-Jah. Cris commented on my Jack bag. I'm surprised she didn't say anything about my sic SOAD shirt. A lot of people noticed and commented on my buckle. Man, its neat-o. I love it.I love:1. Bluntness2. The Flash3. System Of A Down4. Red Hot Chili Peppers5. Being myself with good friends6. Having deep convos with Mick, Kyle and Deanna7. Nny8. Squee9. The Life Of Brian10. Voltaire11. Playing Bass12. Comfy Jeans13. Black Shirts14. Affection15. People who say what they mean and stand by their words16. My Messenger Bag17. Thinking18. Wrestling19. Trying to make my life better everyday20. MUSICThat's that. Yup. I hope things go better. I went to a Jr. Aux meeting today. I was el presidente and I went to work too. After the kinda bleh meeting, Lexie, Brittany and I went to McDonald's and watched Ron watching us. Bum BUM!!! Got bored and went to Donut Ave. Saw Jay there and his mom. Said hi and then I DDR'd with Nick Arambula. Zach showed up and we discussed his possible B-Day thing this Friday. I think D and I are gonna get him THUG. He wants it and we want him to have a Dino Jump at his party. So, its a compromise. We'll see if she agrees. I think she will. I got home and called Tara. We talked for almost an hour. I hope things go better tomorrow at school. Things go much better when we're alone at home or in the truck or anywhere but school.Tommy on 3rd Rock From The Sun was kissed by this chick and she left him all "I was just checking if you were gay." Then she walked away. He was all let down and he said, "Hey, don't start the motor if you can't mow the lawn!" It was great. And Topher Grace is being called Mr. Nude. It's pretty funny.Thats all my rambling for today. Till next time my small audience. Tara Rocks My Sexy Socks.Your Truly,Mateo the Morbid